I have loads of experience feeling abandonment trauma. The terror of being left is fresh and available pretty much anytime. Rejection fits in there nicely with the hypervigilance needed to ensure that I won’t be left. Did she just roll her eyes? Did he turn away because of what I said? Is she not calling […]
In the last few months, I have conversed with two different young people (both mid-twenties) who told me they do not have computers, barely text, and don’t have smart phones. I found my mouth literally ajar. “Really?” I said, “But how do know what’s happening in your area and stuff?” One of them said “Oh, […]
I’m focused on the practice of presence. The practice of my own soul-presence in my body resonating out and watching how the mind interrupts this juicy experience with stories and memories of fear. I have every good reason to run fear through my nervous system (based on what I have lived through) but now I don’t need […]
Torielle and I make videos every few months to mark the moment and be creative together. We have gotten used to bantering like this. We kind of mind-meld. Here’s what Eckhart Tolle says about children and the pain-body. Here he is talking about what to do after tantrums or big expressions of unhappiness in the […]
This is my life right now. Flat out on pavement with beauty sprinkled delicately around me. Man, am I working my process! In the middle of a divorce, learning to be a single Mother, learning to be single (!), learning to say YES to more vivid love and a committed NO to the things that are […]
Hey ya’ll, some of you have asked me to keep posting videos so I pulled out one from the archives. I can’t even believe my child was once this little. So sweet. Hope you enjoy!!!
I wake up, like most people I know, churning in worry, have-to’s, supposed to’s, and what- is-wrong questions. Then, on a good day, I turn inward and choose again to open. I choose love. I choose to let go of trying to control and open to the unknown. I fall. I fall off the cliff […]
Hey ya’ll, this is a slow motion capture of a dance party with me and my 3 year old. You can see how in sync we are and the joy that we step into when we move our bodies to music. What a joy!
I’ve always been a prolific artist. I starvingly devoured any mediums I could find- acrylics, collage, musical instruments, spoken words, clay, photography, drawing, and always, always the dance. Then I gave birth to a baby girl and things…changed. Sort of. During her second and third years, I performed my one-woman show called “Don’t Be A […]
For me, my daughter points the way. All day long, she points me in the direction of opening. She shows me how to do it. She thrives at a level way beyond my usual, daily suffering. She reaches towards me with her big, fearless heart and says “Go this way” and when I follow her, […]