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Life force; thank you

July 9, 2015 by admin 3 Comments

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Life force, life force, life force! It’s the JUICE dude. I want it, I love it, I need it, I have it, how about that?

I just spent 3 and 1/2 days dancing at a dance jam event and felt the essence of myself in the most relieving way. Something about moving without talking, and moving all day long, and channeling all my feelings through my body. Reality profoundly shifts when the body is in the lead. Time expands and I feel that I am no longer waiting for life to happen.

I realized recently that a part of me is always waiting for something. In the back of mind, waiting. For what? To be held, to feel safe, to be loved, to be present, to relax, to LET DOWN. It’s like constantly waiting for a vacation. A lifetime of hyper-vigilance is a force all unto itself and often, there is no off button. And it becomes normal and unconscious. Waiting, waiting.

Ultimately, I think I’m waiting for the Mother. My Mother. A Mother. Waiting for her to come get me out of the crib, to hold me, to see me, to give to me, to fill me up with love. My Mother didn’t do any of that and so part of me is still waiting. It’s a kind of hell realm.

But when I dance or make art or do other sensual or body-centered things, I arrive. I get lost in sensation, in expression, in aliveness. It helps so much that I dance with other people who sometimes roll over my body and compress my bones, muscles, organs, making me feel my edges. I breathe, I close my eyes, I sense, I unravel, I find impulses to move, to rest, to make sounds, to sing, to push, to grab, to go crazy in the best way. I forget to defend myself. I open.

Life force is really very delicious. When you allow it, it’s sweet. It’s powerful. It’s loving. Life force is a pounding river and a quiet eddy. It’s a peaceful flow and an explosion of desire. Life force is always ready to move if we let it and that is no small order.

I am committed to recognizing what is blocking my life force and to cultivating practices that MOVE it through.

When I am in my pure, primal energy, I want to live. I am living. I am.

Filed Under: Consciousness, Creative Enterprize, Uncategorized Tagged With: alive, art, artist, arts, breaking free, creativity, dance, expression, freedom, gratitude, healing, inspiration, life force, love, performance, playful, primal, Rythea Lee, singing, support, taking charge

Comments

  1. John Swift says

    July 10, 2015 at 3:28 am

    Hi Rythea

    I recall our connection from CI 36. I remember you as sincere, kind, generous of heart.

    I get it. I like this entry.

    I am still very much involved with CI. Also other practices: continuum, pranic forms of mediation/healing.

    On a good day, movement and community open to the real self, simple, belonging, brother to all life and time. Big Thank You. The Good Space. Poor worried self critic, well trained by mother, can set down the long list, let go of urgency and doubt, and bask in light. I feel so fortunate to have found these good works.

    I see on FB your family. I’m happy for you.

    I met your friend Samantha at Claymont this spring. What a beauty.

    I don’t care to have this posted. Just wanted to connect.

    Peace, John

    Reply
  2. Salena says

    July 10, 2015 at 11:59 am

    Yes! Yes! Yes! heallllllllllinggggg, yes…..sweet….welcoming…..now!

    Reply
  3. Esza says

    February 10, 2016 at 2:14 pm

    Hi, OM I like your today’s fire performance. It was stinunng and I was amazed because your confidence level was mind blowing. Best of luck and I wish you win this competition.

    Reply

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