I have loads of experience feeling abandonment trauma. The terror of being left is fresh and available pretty much anytime. Rejection fits in there nicely with the hypervigilance needed to ensure that I won’t be left. Did she just roll her eyes? Did he turn away because of what I said? Is she not calling […]
My Project Makes Me Hate Myself, Ha Ha Ha
I’ve decided to make a 20-episode youtube advice show. I’m the host. I’ve been super, crazy excited about the project and after raising enough funds for 7 of my 20 episodes, I decided to make Episode 1. A total blast, joy in the process, ecstatic oneness while expressing myself. The outcome? A fantastic first show. […]
Life force; thank you
Life force, life force, life force! It’s the JUICE dude. I want it, I love it, I need it, I have it, how about that? I just spent 3 and 1/2 days dancing at a dance jam event and felt the essence of myself in the most relieving way. Something about moving without talking, and moving […]
From Under the Covers
I’ve always been a prolific artist. I starvingly devoured any mediums I could find- acrylics, collage, musical instruments, spoken words, clay, photography, drawing, and always, always the dance. Then I gave birth to a baby girl and things…changed. Sort of. During her second and third years, I performed my one-woman show called “Don’t Be A […]
Choosing the Healing Life
When I was 24, my life, as I knew it, shattered. I had my first flashback of childhood sexual abuse, attempted to speak up about it to my family of origin, and was promptly kicked to the curb. I was set loose into what felt like a violent, insane world. Before the flashback, life looked […]