I have loads of experience feeling abandonment trauma. The terror of being left is fresh and available pretty much anytime. Rejection fits in there nicely with the hypervigilance needed to ensure that I won’t be left. Did she just roll her eyes? Did he turn away because of what I said? Is she not calling […]
Rythea’s Story: the words
Here are the words to my story from my on-line show, Advice from a Loving Bitch. Several folks requested it and here it is. This is an ode to the body, my body and how it heals, despite everything. I wanted to talk about the body and how the body factors into loving ones self […]
The Space Between
I remember when there was a lull in the sharpness, that was the worst when the quiet was raging my eyes tracking his feet, hands, voice, tone, eye contact, or lack of, trailing, a lens on high speed following the light between the leaves every shadow, a sign God forbid I forgot and let my […]
Self-Hatred Has A Bottom
What I’ve learned so far is that self-hatred has a bottom. If you follow it down into the reverberating terror, through the hot heat of shame, inside the center of the grieving body, past the grip of powerless rage, it lands. The landing is you. Self-hatred is the bandage over the wound. The wound is […]
My Project Makes Me Hate Myself, Ha Ha Ha
I’ve decided to make a 20-episode youtube advice show. I’m the host. I’ve been super, crazy excited about the project and after raising enough funds for 7 of my 20 episodes, I decided to make Episode 1. A total blast, joy in the process, ecstatic oneness while expressing myself. The outcome? A fantastic first show. […]
I asked for an upgrade, now I’m flat on my back
This is my life right now. Flat out on pavement with beauty sprinkled delicately around me. Man, am I working my process! In the middle of a divorce, learning to be a single Mother, learning to be single (!), learning to say YES to more vivid love and a committed NO to the things that are […]
Peer Counseling: A Counterculture Healing Process
“Gina” a client of mine, was a really lovely, likable human being but she found herself alone and isolated much of the time. She worked hard on her own issues but found connection mysteriously out of reach in terms of solid, stable groups of friends and community. At the same time, she has fears and […]
You are Here (or somewhere close)
I have an unusual relationship to my spiritual guides. Don’t roll your eyes, you’re just jealous. I don’t know what else to call them, my spiritual friends? My higher selves? My Smurfs? (haha, cracked myself up with that one). Whatever, the thing is, I talk to them. Daily, and they literally show me a map […]
5 Minute Video-Rythea Lee: Don’t Be A Dick
Have you ever had a vision of something in your mind and then the reality of it is exactly how you imagined? I know, it rarely happens. That’s how I feel about this video Tom Knight and I made about my one woman show, Don’t Be A Dick. It just captures the heart of my […]
Choosing the Healing Life
When I was 24, my life, as I knew it, shattered. I had my first flashback of childhood sexual abuse, attempted to speak up about it to my family of origin, and was promptly kicked to the curb. I was set loose into what felt like a violent, insane world. Before the flashback, life looked […]